Results

I promised everyone that I would update the blog with the results, so here you go.

 

The results were negative. On Monday morning, Mother Nature showed its ugly face. In a small way, it was a blessing because I was able to be upset in the privacy of our home, and not at work. I tried to keep everyone’s text, calls, and emails at bay until I received confirmation today, although I slipped to a few people at work. I’ll admit, I’m struggling being positive about the whole thing. In many ways, this feels like a miscarriage to me. It’s hard to put into words, but emotionally and spiritually, I feel drained, devastated, hurt, heartbroken, disappointed, etc. When we started this process, I didn’t just picture the pregnancy; I saw long nights at home getting to know our little one, family pictures, playing, crawling, getting into messes, crying, diapers, those little fingers and toes, etc. I pictured it all and it is heartbreaking to see that disappear out of reach. I’m not saying we are giving up, but for now, we just don’t have the financial means to do this again for quite some time. And since we didn’t have any embryos to freeze, like we had planned, it may take even longer than we expect.

 

I would like to tell all of you that we appreciated the love, prayers and support we’ve received from our wonderful family and friends. You’ve all been tremendous and we are so grateful to each and every one of you!

Egg Retrieval & Transfer!!!!!!!!!

This morning seems like a good time to update y'all on the happenings of in vitro! :) I've really dropped the ball this week because a lot has happened. First, injections lasted two weeks, starting on April 29th and ended on May 9ths. The evening of May 9ths, we had one last shot, exactly 35 hours before they retrieved the eggs,  that "triggered" my eggs to be ready to be fertilized. This was a shot of HCG, which is a pretty well know hormone that women produce during pregnancy.

On May 11th, we walked in our doctors office at 7:15am and prepared for the first procedure! Boy does that anesthesia work wonders!!! I remember walking the few steps to the procedure room, in one of those wonderful hospital gowns where you bottom is poking out, and lying on the table. The last thing I recall is me laughing as I felt the drugs in my system. I wake up about 30 minutes later (according to Dave), get dressed and head home. The doctor told Dave that he had retrieved fourteen eggs, which is wonderful! At this point I am feeling wonderful, as the anesthesia is still in effect. By the time we get home, I am already starting to feel the pain. It wasn't too bad but it wore me out, so a 3 1/2 hour nap was in order. That evening was not a good one. The pain only got worse and I developed some frustrating symptoms. Going to the bathroom was extremely painful and when I lied on my back, I had problems breathing. Dave was seriously so wonderful to me in particular this night. He even slept on the couch with me all night, since I tried to sleep sitting up in order to breath. Neither one of us got a ton of sleep and he had to work the next day. I was still in quite a bit of pain on Sunday and even into Monday, but the issues were resolved and I was only feeling a bit swollen on Tuesday.

We were given updates on our eggs on Sunday, after they had fertilized each one. Three eggs were over mature, and three were under mature. We had eight left. By Monday, two of those eight had stopped growing, but we still had six embryos looking good. They base their progress on a grade scales, A through D. It's not unusual not to get an A grade embryo, as they have to perfect to get this rating. We had one grade B, two grade C's and three grate D's.

Tuesday I headed to work, ready to catch up before the Thursday transfer of our embryos. I received a call from our doctors office at 8:45am, which I thought was just another update on our embryos. To my surprise, they wanted to do the transfer in just a couple hours. Dr. Mag, wanted to put three embryos in (1 grade B and 2 grade C's), so give us the best chance possible. This is a bit aggressive for my age, but this could be our only shot, so we went for it. My wonderful boss was more than happy to let me head home to get things ready. Dave's wonderful co-workers covered his shift at the fire station, and by 11:30, we were off to the doctors office to do the transfer! My co-worker said it best..."Babies are unpredictable, and this whole process has been that way... get used to it!!!" It may have  been a surprise to do the transfer two days early, but we were both eager for it! Dave was allowed in the room for this procedure, so they forced him into a hazmat suit (haha, not quite, but it sure looked like one), and I wore my wonderful backless gown. The procedure itself is fairly simply. They require me to have a full bladder, so that they can position the catheter in the right place. Once the catheter is in, they string a smaller catheter and insert the embryos. We only see a quick spritz of fluid on the ultrasound, but it was still a wonderful moment. As soon as the catheters were out, the whole surgical team yelled, "Get pregnant Sarah!!!" It was really a cool moment for us both!

We were given a picture of our future baby(s)!

Now comes the five days of bed rest and I am already antsy! We scheduled the pregnancy test on the 28th and it can't come soon enough! lol I can't wait to start a family with my wonderful husband, who just so happens to be my best friend! What a wonderful blessing to go through such an amazing process with the person you love the most!

I want to extend a quick thank you to everyone who have supported us throughout this adventure and all of your prayers and good wishes! We feel extremely blessed to have each and every one of you in our lives!

Abby!!!

On April 12^th, my sister, Becky, had a beautiful little girl! This make kiddo number four for her family, and number seven nieces and nephews for us! They’ve named her Abigail Louise and she is so precious! I can’t wait to meet her! We are hoping to go out to Iowa in July for her baby blessing, but we shall see.  In the meantime, I have to get my new baby fix with these cute pictures that I’ve stolen from Becky’s blog!