Our next journey has started. I’ve submitted my notice,
goodbye dinners are being planned, I’ve signed up for school, I’ve started
studying, we’ve figured out the finances, and then… we receive an email from
our fertility clinic. We have the opportunity to try in vitro again, for about
a third of the cost. What do we do?!?!?! We deliberated for weeks, I cried
several times (haha imagine that), and we’ve talked about it until we couldn’t
anymore. How could the timing be so terrible? How could we make this decision
with me being unemployed at the end of the month and headed to school (which is
quite a feat for me all on its own)? More importantly, how could we use the
money we have saved to pay for this? How in the world do we do this? And then…
how do we turn this down? It’s a third of the cost! We want to be parents so
badly, so how do we make the decision to pass this up? What if the timing is
actually just right? What if it works this time? What if I could put my pride
aside and receive the financial help we were offered by my magnificent, giving,
caring father? These are all things we thought about, and even today, we are
still scared for our future. But we are also excited! We’ve officially decided
to go ahead with in vitro! We are so grateful for the support from our family
and even more grateful for the financial help we are receiving. Without it, we
would have to pass this opportunity up. I pray that this time it pays off, and
all our stress and hard work will be worth it. It’s official; we are starting
this all over again, and for those of you who have requested it, I will be
keeping updates on the progression! Thank you to all of you who have given us
kind words of encouragement! We love you all!
