I read a few blogs religiously. Mostly family and friends,
but there is one in particular that I get excited about when there is a new
post. www.stevewiene.com (The Actual
Pastor) is one of my favorite blogs around. Most of his posts are his own
writing, but he also compiles his favorite posts, from other writers, on his
own page. Often I read my daily dose of “The Actual Pastor,” and think; he must
write these just for me. Haha One of my favorite posts is here
. It’s about infertility and brings such truth and raw emotion (and even a bit
of humor) to the topic. I can relate to
every single word.
Someone close to my heart told me recently how proud they
were of the strength I’ve show this past year. Now, I wouldn’t say that I’ve
been strong, because I have had many moment of brokenness, but my mind instantly
went to our fertility troubles. As the conversation continued, I realize this well-meaning
person actually meant the car wreck and work issues I’ve gone through recently.
I had to stifle a laugh. Of course those things are stressful, but I don’t feel
like I’ve needed to be strong through them. They are just happenings of life. Infertility,
on the other hand, has been a continuous struggle. Despite finding out over a
year ago of our troubles, it feels just as devastating today as it did then. Many
of our loved ones have shown empathy for our situation, and it’s great to know
that we have such a wonderful support system, but true understanding comes from
experiencing. I pray that one day no one will experience the pain of infertility,
but until that day, I plan to move forward in any way I can towards our plans
of becoming parents.
