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Coming to terms with our infertility hasn't been easy especially the first time we went through IVF. Somehow this time around we were so much more prepared, and in turn, it hasn't been nearly as hard. I'm not sure how but I haven't cried (excluding the day we got the news) or had moments of overwhelming sadness for our circumstances. I haven't had those moments that surprise you with the reality of the situation. We have been blessed with understanding and acceptance this time around.

I hate categorizing but we all fall into them. There are Mothers, Fathers, Grandparents, Aunts and Uncles. I've slowly started to categorize ourselves in the "childless" category. There are perks to this. We can have nice things that won't be broken, take a last minute get  away without the worry of a babysitter (well, we still have fur babies), get ready to leave the house in a timely manner, watch a Bronco game in full without interruptions, and enjoy crumb-free cars. I'm not saying that I wouldn't give those things up for a child, or that my parent friends can't have these things, but I'm finding perks in our new category of life.  Life's a little simpler when it's just the two of us and I'm finding joy in that!

Welp...

I'm going to keep this short and sweet, mostly because I don't know what else to say. We got the call a few hours ago and the results were negative.

We thank you all for your support and love throughout our journey!

Bed Rest

I had a friend recently tell me that when she was on bed rest it meant taking it easy at home. She could still do some things around the house. When I'm on bed rest, it means just that. Lying in bed and resting, or aka chilling on the couch watching movies. Can I just say right now that I'm over it! Hehe Five days is a long time!

We were called last minute yesterday to come in and do the embryo transfer. We started with six eggs, which quickly declined to two. We elected to put both in and now we just wait! In vitro is a lot of injections and waiting. We have our pregnancy test scheduled for the 28th and then we will know if we were successful! In the mean time Dave's doing just about everything for me. He's quite amazing (just in case I haven't mentioned that before)!

Eggs

Yesterday was our egg retrieval and I was nervous about it. The last time I had this surgery, I was in a lot of pain for several days. In comparison, this time was a breeze! Yesterday I was sore and tired, but I didn't loose my lunch on the kitchen floor (reminisce of last years ordeal), or have breathing issues. Today has been even better. Still sore, but feeling quite good considering. I'd give credit to myself for being extra prepared this time, except I know that God was the real reason.


We had only six eggs this time around (last year was fourteen), but we are hopeful that they will all be quality eggs. I should be receiving a phone call from the clinic later today updating us on the progress. We know that having so few eggs can mean there are more fertility issues between Dave and I than originally expected, but that it's ultimately up to God. I've prayed a lot these last few weeks not for a perfect child, but rather understanding for Gods plan. We obviously want to start a family, but I'd rather ask for strength to get us through whatever the outcome is.


Thank you for all of your prayers and even a few people fasting for us. We know that they have helped us throughout the process and we are so grateful! Love you all!

You wonderful people...

We have had so many offers from family and friends to come visit us while we are on bed rest. I say "we" because my fantastic (and quite handsome) husband is taking the time off with me. He's great about doing the cooking (and he's a great cook by the way) and keeping up with the house cleaning while I'm resting on the couch.


I wanted to say thank you to the people who have offered meals, their company and support. We couldn't ask for better people in our lives! I also wanted to explain why I've declined most of these sweet offers.


Our first procedure makes small incisions in order to extract the eggs. Last time I had this procedure, my body didn't react very well. I was super swollen, which led to some extremely uncomfortable symptoms for a few days. I would hate to expose my wonderful friends to my cranky, bloated, grimy self. I'd like to keep these friendships and not scare them off by my whininess! :)


The second procedure is much less intense, but is the one where I'm required to stay in bed (or on my comfy couch) for five days. I'm not supposed to stand up for more than three minutes at a time, which unfortunately means few showers. :/ As I said before, I don't want to scare my friends off, I love them dearly!


You are all so wonderful to offer your time and cooking skills! We love you all very much!

Injections and Hormones

I started my twice a day hormone injections about two weeks ago, and we only have one more week left! I'm entirely ready to be done with these 1 1/2 inch needles in my rear! They go into the muscle and hurt. It will all be worth it one day though, right?!?!?!? LOL we can only hope.


One fun side effect, is that I'm high on hormones, and that comes with tearful eyes for no good reason. My sister lives in Iowa, and she posted some videos of my beautiful niece dancing in her recital for the family to see. I cried my eyes out, and the whole time I'm thinking, "why in the world am I so emotional?" I suppose you have to find humor in the process. :)


As for updates, we only have one. We have at least nine eggs growing so far, but they are a bit behind schedule so our first procedure is currently moved to July 12th (originally the 11th). As we learned last time, nothing stays on schedule and this date could change last minute.


Love you all and as always, thanks for the support!

Deja Vu

I feel like I just went through this a year ago... Oh wait... I did! haha




I have promised several people that I would keep in vitro updates on here, so here's the first one. We've started hormone injections. Our first procedure is July 11th and the final on is July 18th. Then we wait!




Last time, I was much more eager for the procedures, but this time, I can't wait for them to be over!


There's honestly not much to update y'all with, but I promise to keep you in the loop. Love you all and as always, thank you so much for all your support!!